Scoliosis :'(

So.... I went to the doctor's today ... 

As some of you might know, I have scoliosis . It's a back problem where your spine is curved to one side . 

Actually , I'm suppose to be wearing a brace . It's a hard case that is terribly uncomfortable and hot especially in Singapore :( 

I'm a very stubborn person if you know me . I hate discomfort of any sort and I just refuse to wear the brace . It was 2 years with the mentality — nothin bad will happen to me . 

That was till health checkup in school where we had to do the forward bending test . 

The nurse seemed worried and even called up my mum . I figured that... maybe I should just try to wear it at night when I go to sleep . 

So at night , I would turn the air-condition to 23 degree Celsius (yes I know , global warming) and go to sleep . Wearing the damn brace >:\

For those who have never worn a brace before and you THINK it's freaking easy , let me just give u a heads up . 

                   It's NOT                          

It's hot , it gives me heat rashes and it makes me look fat & bulky . 

Hey , I'm a girl and I care about how I look . It's totally NORMAL . I might have tom-boyish days but eventually if I am still  a girl I will always be self conscious and will be scared that people judge me . The way I dress , the way I talk , how my Instagram posts look and etc etc . 

So back to the topic . I went for the checkup that the nurse referred me to today . It was at Singapore General Hospital & god was it a complicated process . 

I hated seeing doctors . Not because I couldn't stand the sight of needles , I just could not stand hospitals . I dislike the fact that I have to wait even if I had an appointment .-. I mean then what's the point of an appointment ? 

【PS. watch iisuperwomanii on youtube , why I hate going to the doctor's or something like dat , ITS AWESOME :))】

Anyways , I waited and stuff and took my x-ray ... When I saw the results . I got a shock . Literally . It was bad I mean , look: 

You see that curve there? Well, it's bad . It's obvious that the normal human's backbone is not like that . I mean .-. 

On the side note , my parents paid $600-$800 Sing dollars for the brace . It's suppose to help me . But erm no . Becuase of me , they practically wasted the money cuz I refuse to wear the damn brace . 

So the doctor says that I still have 2 more years or so to stop growing .

•On the positive side , yay ! I can become taller ! :D

•On the negative side , damn the bone could still worsen and move ._.

Once I've grown , it'll show on the X-ray above the hip bone . 

And the bone will be permernantly there and won't change . So this brace thing is suppose to keep my bone there so it doesn't worsen or improve is just by a little bit . 

My final decision is to wear it , I know it's going to be hard . But I guess I hate wasting my parent's hard earned money . To those who's facing the same problem , I feel you . 

-PICTURE DOES NOT BELONG TO ME-

                                         ☻

I always wonder why among 41 people in my class , only 3 of us in class has this problem . 

Why only me ? Why can't it happen to some other people ? Why am I so unlucky ?? 

Think of it this way ... Other people are born in Africa , where they don't have a place to live , nor a place to study and grow properly . I have a place to live , a great family , friends and everything perfect for a normal lifestyle . If this issue , brings me down already , in the many more years to come , where more problems and challenges arise , how will I be able to overcome it ? 

Of course , I can't possibly wear it 24/7 immediately . Maybe you can , but I defiantly can't get use to it . 

So I've decided to wear it for a few more days to sleep . Then ... Maybe everyday after I shower , I can put on till I sleep and wake up :) it's a routine thing . Eventually I'll get use to it & 2 years will be over in a blink of an eye . 

Maybe after this thing , or during the process I'll draw on my brace & make it look pretty :) not like the boring white one now :P haha 

My Next appointment @ KK on the 3rd Novemenber , morning when I collect my EOY results . I hope it'll get better 🙏

Meanwhile , I should go study geography and science :\ it's streaming year and hell ya it's important ! 

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE TAKING EOY 

☻ 

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CREDS : to my awesome buddy , Alynna , who's always there for me no matter what :D

Byeeeeee ! And thanks for reading . Again . Stalker :P 

The Band Story :)

WARNING : THIS IS GOING TO BE LONG 

So as you guys know ... I'm in a band .

Concert Band actually , to be specific :) 

Honestly , when I was in secondary 1 , I hated band . I literally dragged my feet and cried myself to sleep 1 day before the day we had band . 

The conductor was tough , my tutor unliked others , was horrible and besides that , I did not had many close friends . 

Things started to get better , at the middle of sec 1 . When the conductor hired 2 other teachers to teach the junior band . Mr Lim and Mr Er . 

Mr Lim was a great teacher :) he was patient , fun and very nice . All of the juniors always an anticipated his presence for band instead of our "head conductor" . 

One thing you should know about the "head conductor" , he was extremely strict , cold , mean , rarely smiled , expected highly of us , not as patient and was just plain .. Horrible . You would not want to mess with him . 

- PICTURES DO NOT BELONG TO ME -

Well , for Mr Er , he was nice at first . Compared to our "head conductor" he was slightly better . SLIGHTLY . I still liked Mr Lim better though :\ anyways , this was what changed . Why I said "nice at first"

Currently , I play the tenor saxaphone in band and alto saxaphone for exams . Before I switched my instrument to saxaphone , I was in this section of the cornets . To those who don't know . The cornet is a smaller version of a trumpet . 

- PICTURE DOES NOT BELONG TO ME- 

I did not have a problem with it actually . I could buzz (google that) and my fingering was perfectly fine at the beginners level . But I just did not like brass instrument and whenever I tried playing the instrument , I get bad headaches . I also thought long term , where I knew that I would not be able to stand this instrument . So I requested to my "head conductor" a change to the saxaphone section . 

I saw this opportunity to play the instrument  as my friend , Nicole , was originally playing it and was sick for 2 weeks . 

To this day , I feel SO guilty for "taking" and "replacing" her spot for saxaphone . Honestly , if I were in her place , I would feel incredibly hurt and unwanted .

Anyways , the "head conductor" allowed the change . He said he would monitor my progress and whatsoever . I started playing on it ... And stuff like that . My tutor was not very nice to me . Compared to the cornet tutor , he was way much better . But that was fine actually . I had my seniors to guide me and stuff :) 

After that , we went for sectionals , where Mr Er conducted us . He saw that I changed instruments and became angry . He scolded me and yelled . That didn't bothered me till this : 

" I don't even want to see your face ." 

That hurt . It was like "ouch." I wanted to cry and run out of there ... It was horrible . I remember he made me sit in the corner like a primary 1 girl and practice my high D . Like WTH , it's my 1st day playing this instrument and you want me to reach every single note ? 

Till this day ... I remember the feelings , the moment , the embrassement  . They say that people should just buried the hatchet and let go . Well , I'm sorry . Wait I'm not sorry . Screw you , I just can't do that . 

Thanks for reading :) 

That was pretty intense 😂 

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Byeeee ! Till my god-knows-when next post :) 

This going to be Weirdddd

Whaddup guys !

Okay , this is really awkward , I've created it JUST BECAUSE all my friends have blogs and I was like "shoot peer pressure and just do it" ... So here I am 😂 

(if u can't see emojis , I'm using the cry-till-you-laugh one) 

Anyways ... Hi ! My name is Samatha :) I'm turning 14 this year and this blog will just be me talking about my life when I'm bored ! Technically , I have a lot of things to do now ... Studies and stuff but yah .... Screw that :P 

I'm 14 this year ... Plays in the band .... And is blogging now :) I do own a blogshop ... Was actually on @eccentricallychic but I forgot my password when I was going to reach 2000 followers 

:'( 

*cries horrifically loud* 

But now I'm on carousell , @eccentricallychic so u can support me there :) it'll mean LOTS to me !

However , on Instagram , I've created a 2nd account BUT I'm not too active there :/ -->  @eccentricallychic.2 

Okay ... That's about it for my 1st post? Thanks for reading! I know this is not very much but ... Thanks anyway :) 

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byeeeeee ! till next post ! :D 

PS , don't judge my photo ... I'm ugly real-life Kays ;)