Scoliosis :'(

So.... I went to the doctor's today ... 

As some of you might know, I have scoliosis . It's a back problem where your spine is curved to one side . 

Actually , I'm suppose to be wearing a brace . It's a hard case that is terribly uncomfortable and hot especially in Singapore :( 

I'm a very stubborn person if you know me . I hate discomfort of any sort and I just refuse to wear the brace . It was 2 years with the mentality — nothin bad will happen to me . 

That was till health checkup in school where we had to do the forward bending test . 

The nurse seemed worried and even called up my mum . I figured that... maybe I should just try to wear it at night when I go to sleep . 

So at night , I would turn the air-condition to 23 degree Celsius (yes I know , global warming) and go to sleep . Wearing the damn brace >:\

For those who have never worn a brace before and you THINK it's freaking easy , let me just give u a heads up . 

                   It's NOT                          

It's hot , it gives me heat rashes and it makes me look fat & bulky . 

Hey , I'm a girl and I care about how I look . It's totally NORMAL . I might have tom-boyish days but eventually if I am still  a girl I will always be self conscious and will be scared that people judge me . The way I dress , the way I talk , how my Instagram posts look and etc etc . 

So back to the topic . I went for the checkup that the nurse referred me to today . It was at Singapore General Hospital & god was it a complicated process . 

I hated seeing doctors . Not because I couldn't stand the sight of needles , I just could not stand hospitals . I dislike the fact that I have to wait even if I had an appointment .-. I mean then what's the point of an appointment ? 

【PS. watch iisuperwomanii on youtube , why I hate going to the doctor's or something like dat , ITS AWESOME :))】

Anyways , I waited and stuff and took my x-ray ... When I saw the results . I got a shock . Literally . It was bad I mean , look: 

You see that curve there? Well, it's bad . It's obvious that the normal human's backbone is not like that . I mean .-. 

On the side note , my parents paid $600-$800 Sing dollars for the brace . It's suppose to help me . But erm no . Becuase of me , they practically wasted the money cuz I refuse to wear the damn brace . 

So the doctor says that I still have 2 more years or so to stop growing .

•On the positive side , yay ! I can become taller ! :D

•On the negative side , damn the bone could still worsen and move ._.

Once I've grown , it'll show on the X-ray above the hip bone . 

And the bone will be permernantly there and won't change . So this brace thing is suppose to keep my bone there so it doesn't worsen or improve is just by a little bit . 

My final decision is to wear it , I know it's going to be hard . But I guess I hate wasting my parent's hard earned money . To those who's facing the same problem , I feel you . 

-PICTURE DOES NOT BELONG TO ME-

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I always wonder why among 41 people in my class , only 3 of us in class has this problem . 

Why only me ? Why can't it happen to some other people ? Why am I so unlucky ?? 

Think of it this way ... Other people are born in Africa , where they don't have a place to live , nor a place to study and grow properly . I have a place to live , a great family , friends and everything perfect for a normal lifestyle . If this issue , brings me down already , in the many more years to come , where more problems and challenges arise , how will I be able to overcome it ? 

Of course , I can't possibly wear it 24/7 immediately . Maybe you can , but I defiantly can't get use to it . 

So I've decided to wear it for a few more days to sleep . Then ... Maybe everyday after I shower , I can put on till I sleep and wake up :) it's a routine thing . Eventually I'll get use to it & 2 years will be over in a blink of an eye . 

Maybe after this thing , or during the process I'll draw on my brace & make it look pretty :) not like the boring white one now :P haha 

My Next appointment @ KK on the 3rd Novemenber , morning when I collect my EOY results . I hope it'll get better 🙏

Meanwhile , I should go study geography and science :\ it's streaming year and hell ya it's important ! 

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE TAKING EOY 

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Byeeeeee ! And thanks for reading . Again . Stalker :P